I simply can not believe that are so few days left in 2010. This year flew by with record speed. It has been a crazy busy but good year.
I tend not to make resolutions because I’m horrible at sticking to them. I’m generally good for the first couple of months but come April I’ve usually abandoned them for one reason or another. Perhaps this year will be different.
Both my husband and I made Lauren a promise the day she was born that we would get healthier. The night before she was born my husband had his last cigarette. He kept his promise. I have had a more difficult time. I am more healthy than I was before I got pregnant. I have almost completely cut out fast food, stopped drinking diet soda and I cook at home more often than we eat out. I have lost some weight. But not enough. According to those charts they show at the docs office, I still have quite a bit to go before I’m at a healthy weight. And I have to shed this excess weight to take the strain off of my heart.
I have this horrible fear that if I don’t get my health in check my little girl is going to grow up without me. This isn’t completely insane of me. My father died on New Years Day just over 30 years ago now. Every single year I think about him and this year is no exception. I’m nearly the age he was when he had that fatal heart attack. I don’t want to miss my little girl growing up. I want to play with her in the park, teach her how to roller skate and ride bikes and be there to hold her tight when she has her heart broken for the first time by some stupid little turd.
I don’t want to miss it. None of it. Not even those years where she’ll hate me because I’m being too strict and will scream at me that I don’t understand what she’s going through.
In 2011 I resolve to take more steps along the right path of being a healthy person. No more cookies for dinner. No more tater tot and soda lunches. I’ll even try not to skip breakfast. Also, no more talking smack about myself in my head. My self esteem needs a MAJOR overhaul.
I don’t own a scale and don’t even currently have a tape measure so I’m not yet sure how I’ll track my progress. Perhaps I’ll go buy a tape measure. I don’t want to become obsessed with numbers on a scale. Been there, done that. Twice.
I will post my progress here, probably once a week. I’ll also be experimenting with weekly posts that may help me stay focused. If you have any tips or suggestions, I would love to hear what you have to say!